always always... wats wrong wif mi being mi? if u wanted a perfect daughter why didn't u give birth to barbie? i not someone i can be. stop comparing mi to others. it stressful.... really... dun u guys even noe how much it hurts? one after another... dun u all feel anything? why was i born? as the saying goes.. everything was born for a reason... so wats mine? i dun think i have any though... to wat point do you all have to force mi to? my tears cnt even flow out now? wat do u wan mi to do? wat must i do just to hear one word of good job? in all my 13 years other then why is tis so bad and to lousy is all u can say? not even one word of encouragment.... who do u think the child feels? wat i feel? the treatment is so different from tat someone. why? home does not even feel lyk one anymore. wat is family? wat is warmth? wat is it tat i was born for? i cnt smile nor cry... wat do u wan from mi? really wat??? if i jump off will u feel anything? if i leave the house will u even think? if i just dissappeared into thin air will u all feel anything? all u noe is to pour all ur feeling into mi? wat u are hurt... wat do u think i had to go though all tis time? how many sleepless nights have i gone through? is it really lyk tat? are u all really think about mi? it scary to think tat there is no one but mi in the house... even a birthday present must be earned. wats wif tat. is it really worth it?